Calling Your Name

again i wake up in the middle of the night,
the cold and unforgiving silence echoes through my conciousness,
why does it always give me fright?
when the phantom of you again eroded my defenses.

i again wonder where you are tonight,
and again there’s that unbearable pain in the heart,
i prayed so hard that the angels will make you be alright,
but still that’s not enough to stop me from falling apart.

now that i live without your smile,
the company of others cannot fool the heartache,
i feel that living is not worthwhile,
all the beauty around, without you what difference thus it make?

again i stare at the dark sky,
but the solitude there i cannot find,
again and again I’m asking why?
your name, even how hard i try is still engraved in my mind.

i remember the things we used to do,
but that was centuries ago,
the pain, the hurting is never new,
it is unknown on when i can let go.

i cannot picture what the future holds for me,
but i hope i cross your way again,
the laughter and the passion was our destiny,
but tonight all i can do is call your name.

Fireflies

when i was a boy i used to chase fireflies,

for i thought they were stars that fell on earth,

they would illuminate the dark skies,

with their twinkles and lights from their birth.

i thought that if i could have one,

i could close my eyes and wish,

i would call a friend and have fun,

chasing those lights and miss.

but now I’m much older than before,

but still chase fireflies,

for like them are my dreams gone sore,

pain and happiness that made me wise.

i loved and i bled,

but still persevere,

i laughed and tears i shed,

i got strength in my fears.

but like a firefly in my hand i need to let it go,

because they are not truly stars,

only a good and little insect that glow,

like you that in my heart now is only a scar.